Being a twenty-something
It is when we stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about ourselves that we didn't know and may not like. We start feeling insecure and wonder where we will be in a year or two, but then get scared because we barely know where we are now.This is when we start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that we thoughtwere so close, aren't exactly the greatest people we have ever met, and the people we have fought with and lost touch are some of the most important ones. They made us laugh and cry.Some of the best times we shared with them start reappearing in our minds.We fail to understand why we behaved the way we did at that time and fought. Everything seems to be very childish all of a sudden. What we don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as we are.
We look at every teenager or those 18 year olds with our judging eyes. We think they are stupid and dont know what they are doing and have no idea about what they want from their future. We always say or think that we never behaved like this. But most of the times we fail to realize that we were teenagers once and more or less behaved this way.Our opinions have gotten stronger. We have certain boundaries in our lives and are constantly adding things to our list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, we are insecure and then the next, secure.
We look at every teenager or those 18 year olds with our judging eyes. We think they are stupid and dont know what they are doing and have no idea about what they want from their future. We always say or think that we never behaved like this. But most of the times we fail to realize that we were teenagers once and more or less behaved this way.Our opinions have gotten stronger. We have certain boundaries in our lives and are constantly adding things to our list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, we are insecure and then the next, secure.
We look at wat we are studyin or our jobs... and it is not even close to what we thought we would be doing, or maybe we are looking for a job and realize that we would have to start right from the scratch and that scares us. We are no where close to our goals or where we expected ourselves to be. The idea of buying our first car and the first house still feels distant.
We laugh and cry with the greatest force of our life. We feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and we try and hold on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where we are or move forward.
We get our heart broken and wonder how someone we loved with all our heart could do such damage. We lie in the bed and wonder why we can't meet anyone decent enough that we want to get to know better. We wonder how and why other people we know have such perfect life and dont have to worry about anything. Why some people get everything and some have to put up a fight for everything, may it be money, love, family, job ...the list seems to be very long. We dont understand why we are in such a mess cause we know that we aren't that bad after all.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. We go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with friends about the same topics because we cannot seem to draw a conclusion or find a solution to our problems. We worry about loans, money, family and everything under the sun and the future and what it holds for us. Suddenly we are just tired of the uncertainty life brings. We want solutions and answers to our queries from god or the world.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. We go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with friends about the same topics because we cannot seem to draw a conclusion or find a solution to our problems. We worry about loans, money, family and everything under the sun and the future and what it holds for us. Suddenly we are just tired of the uncertainty life brings. We want solutions and answers to our queries from god or the world.
and while winning the race would be great, right now you are scared just to be a contender!
What we dontrealize is that every other 20 someone relates to it.
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We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.
wats life without a few risks?============================================================
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